Of course I love you..

"Now I knew how life is without your most loved one. Life ceases to mean anything. Avantike had sucked me out of all my energy, love and optimism. Everywhere I went, I couldn't help but see her all around. May be she is stalking me. May be she is behind that pillar to see how I'm doing. My world had crashed right in front of my eyes. Every place reminded me of her and the time we had spent there."
A drop of tear went down his cheeks as he read these lines. Rohan was reading "Of course I Love you..!Till I find someone better." Nothing could have described his state of mind in a way better than these lines. It had been a bit more than 3 months..no not 3..may be 2 months since he had promised himself that he won't let a single drop of tear come out of his eyes though , at times, it had really been difficult to make his tear glands obey him. He had spent a year and a half trying to mend his broken relationship, which meant world to him, only to realize that it was over and things would never be the same. Rohan wanted to come to terms with it and accept the truth but couldn't succeed. He had read somewhere that hope is the only thing that keeps the world moving. But for Rohan, hope was one thing that stopped him from moving on. One day he decided to abuse her and say all nasty things over the phone in order to kill all his hope of getting her back which he had thought would help him move on. But it didn't. It was the last time Rohan had talked to her. He hadn't slept for days after that and was tired of it. He felt sleepy but couldn't sleep because the moment he closed his eyes it, reminded him of her intoxicating eyes and beauty.
It was the first time in the last two months that he didn't try to control his tears..it vented out the emptiness, hopelessness, anger and dismay in him as it busted. He cried like a baby. But it made him feel better. Now he was much better..atleast that is what his friends feel. But only he knew that everyday he wakes up with her memories haunting him..haunting him till date.
He has quite a few good looking girls around him. He tried to convince himself that may be he is destined to get something better..destined to meet someone someday who would actually love him the way he had dreamt of. But trying to cheat himself and provide himself with consolation didn't work. He couldn't help but curse himself for having loved her..for having made someone else go through this hell that he was going through now.
Now Rohan knew how life is without his most loved one. Life ceased to mean anything. She had sucked him out of all his energy, love and optimism. Everywhere he went, he couldn't help but see her all around. His world had crashed right in front of his eyes. Every place reminded him of her and the time they had spent there. May be Rohan will keep loving her till he finds someone better or may be even after that...................